21 years later.

There has not been a time in my life where there wasn’t a spot for my sister. She’s been in my life since I could first remember.

The two of us are the only ones who even come close to experiencing the same things in life.

I wouldn’t have it any other way.

We’ve fought, argued, disagreed, agreed, laughed, hated, loved, cherished, complained, pitied, listened and bickered our entire lives. Together.

And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

The biggest lesson my sister has taught me in life is that the only person who can truly make us happy is ourselves. If pleasing others makes us happy, then we should do it. If being a “hands off” person is more of what we prefer, and makes us happy, then we should do it. At the end of the day it’s up to us.

It took me a hard long look in the mirror to understand my worth. My sister guided me into understanding how important I am as a human being. 

Losing our mother at such young ages broke us. We’re not all picked up and glued back together. But seven years later we are stronger than ever before. 

And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

As the hour comes closer to the 22nd of August I am reminded that my sister will be 21 years old. She’s officially an adult. Something she’s been waiting for. Something I guess we all wait for to finally be taken seriously in our own communities. I guess I’m counting the days, too, until I can go back to Vegas and actually gamble. (haha) That is beside the point of turning 21 in my book, however, the possibilities are now completely endless and I’m happy to congratulate her and celebrate her precious life.

Birthdays are celebrations of one’s life. But I also believe it should be a day designated for those to cherish their loved ones and remind them of how important they are. 

Mariah –

We ask and pray for help. We ask and pray to have a moment of relief and a break from the roller coaster of life. I want you to know that you are what I ask for. You are my helper and my relief. You are my buddy on this roller coaster. I will scream with you and cry with you and laugh with you. I have always and always will continue to love and adore you. I respect the person you are and the person you’ve been and the person you can’t wait to be. I truly believe that a good God made you just the way you are to teach me of tolerance, love, friendship, acceptance, happiness, joy, pride and selflessness. 

Our relationship is built firmly upon a rock — that no matter how many times we slip and slide — we’ll always have that rock to fall back on. We have love. We have our memories. And most of all, we have each other.

I’m truly thankful that our paths crossed early in life.

I love you dearly.


Sincerely Your Sister and Friend,