You. Are. Fine.

This past week you are fine is all I can say to keep getting out of bed each day and trying.

I’m not fine. God knows that.

I’m burdened by the many challenges I am about to face in my future. I know this.

All I can do is pray I’ll get to Boise for Christmas this year.

Everything else is a blur, and I don’t give a fuck about it.


4 Replies to “You. Are. Fine.”

  1. Hey Cousin!:) i love you so much and i understand how hard life is sometimes, but i know you. You is strong, You is kind, and You is beautiful! Im here for you always!:):) ❤

  2. Sammie, I wish you lived closer. I know…even when you were as close as Poky, I didn’t make the effort to see you. I am still torn by the desire to be your “aunt” and try to say or do what your mom would say or do if she could speak to you out loud, and the desire to avoid any reminder that she is no longer here. It is selfish of me. I don’t know what you are going through right now, but I know you have a father that loves you, and a mother with enormous power to pull some strings for you, so just try to remember that as each day weighs you down. I am not saying you won’t have a rough road MANY times in your life. I am just saying you are not alone. All of us have been through our own trials, and survived with the help of friends and family and some professional help for some of us. lol You are and will always be “my Sammie” in my heart. You are part of me in the same way your sister and mom and “even” your dad (lol) are.

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